04.10.09 Tarot and Dream

So I woke up a three am and what else does one do while waiting for theraflu to cool down, but do a Tarot reading? I used the DruidCraft deck, Awen spread.

past ideas-5 of Cups
past emotions-R Prince of Cups, message R5 of Swords
past manifestations-High Priest

present ideas-R2 of Cups
present emotions- the Moon
present manifestations-9 of Pentacles

future ideas-10 of Pentacles
future emotions-R7 of Pentacles
future manifestations-6 of Wands

So yes, I've been feeling a bit wounded as of late. That should change. True I am a bit unhappy with my job. And things should be looking up a bit. Okay.

Then I tried to go back to sleep after that. I remember the beginning of a dream were I was on a boat with men in black cloaks being taken to meet the God. Flip the whole Mists of Avalon thing and you've got it. The God came close to me to give me my message and I startled awake. Wonder if I will get back to that one or not?

Troubles and work

On Sunday the broiler element in the oven popped and tried to catch fire. We acted fast, the building is safe. Ruined the makings for a damn fine fritatta breakfast. Denied bacon! I flipped the breaker switch to the stovetop to be sure. We lucked out and got a dinner invitation that night and did not have to worry about anything. Maintenance has been here, everything is fixed and now we clean. Am quite pooped though and taking a break. Am using a mix of one pint hot water, 2 tsp Dr Bonner's, and 2tsp borax. Mix in a spray bottle, spritz all over oven and let it sit 20 minutes before wiping up. Works pretty good, but will have to work on it a little more throughout the week.

Also over the weekend, DH and I walked 5+ miles. He of course did the plus. Two miles on the centennial trail beginning at 9 mile dam on Saturday. Three (for me) on the trail starting from our front door. Tired and actually got a little bit of a sunburn. Am hoping to make walks a regular part of the weekend now.

Today...well crap. There were 44 first appearances on the calendar. More than double what we usually have. Damned new procedures. One of the jury team is on vacation and the primary/top dog/head cheese person does not want to do the coverage that she should. She is FLSA exempt and gets 5 extra personal days per year to do this sort of thing. I am salary treated as hourly and expire after my 7.50 hours. She was actually slamming things around when she realized she really needed to stay. Not my fault or problem that she could not leave early. Tomorrow should be just dandy. She is going to try and leave early again. Joy.

Dream 033009

I woke up to the weirdest dream that I need to try and incubate to get back to very soon. I was walking through a house, not an apartment. It was mine and DH's. I saw a newspaper that was a different format from the review, but could not see the city or date. It was one of the ones with the scrolly looking fleur de lis on it. I woke as I was trying to open a door to a room in the house. It was a plain ball style doorknob. Not the cut glass or crystal of an old home and note the lever style that is in a lot of newer ones. I couldn't get the door open. I managed to go back to this place after I whacked the snooze button this morning, but still could not get the door open. I couldn't see out of any of the windows either.

Me? Blockages? Alex, I'll take the catagory of 'Duh!' for $400 please.

Simplify and consolidate

Blogging makes me feel better. I get to rant. I have not done much here because social sites with blogs all seem to demand a little bit of attention. Well myspace is getting no more attention from me.

A most wonderful gift

For Solstice, from dear friends; a handmade finger labyrinth. The scalloped wood edge was cut out of wood. A modified Chartes patter traced on and maked with two layers of fabric puff paint. Painted with several colors. Red for the divine feminine. Purple for Spirit. Gold for god/male energy and silver for goddess/female. Copper as the conductor. Original wording around the edge is "When every way is closed before you, Spirit will show a path."

I look forward to walking with Grace and Spirit.

Single Card 120508

I did a single card pull last night, 5 of swords, using the Druid Craft deck. There has been some dissapointment in life lately, but how to come out of it?

10222008 sleepless dream

Last night I woke at 1:30 am unable to sleep. Read for at least an hour and tried to sleep. I had a dream. I was at a huge outdoor party, surrounded by unknown people-couldnt find DH. Found a cat, not mine, and carried it back to the gate with me for comfort. I looked down and the ground was covered with dead birds. Little black ones. There was no place to step without stepping on their little bodies. Farther up the hill there were larger birds, some of them ducks. When I got to the gate, there were more small animals dead on the ground, four pawed but I could not tell what they were. The next portion I remember was entering an empty apartment and seeing the exit paperwork and DH had an adress but left my space blank.

Most of this to me speaks of dissappointment and fear in so many areas of life. I don't know how to cope yet.